11. Thin Threads
A/N: Guess who's back, back ag-no? Ok:-(
Warning: L A R R Y
Louis's pov
When I opened my eyes, I was welcomed with overwhelming brightness, which didn't help the headache that had found its way to me...
I sat up and realized that I was in my bed and I was still in my clothes from last night.
I went to stand which made me feel extremely nauseous. Probably not a good idea to move around much.
I stumbled my way over to my dresser and put on a fresh t-shirt and sweats. I then went into my bathroom and splashed some water on my face.
When I looked into the mirror, I did a double-take at what I saw....
I did not look like my normal self. There were bags under my eyes, and my skin wasn't its regular tan self. Man I really let myself go....
After I cleaned up and felt better, I went downstairs. I grabbed myself some aspirin and made a cup of tea.
"I see your feeling better" Harry's raspy morning voice spoke from behind me.
"Uh yeah...about that. What happened?"
"You mean you don't remember?" Harry asked and his eyes widened.
"No. Well I remember passing out outside" I said, "anything else happen after that?"
"Uh-no. Nothing at all..." He said but I didn't believe him.
There was still a lot of awkwardness that was present between us. He's probably still mad about I, yet again, rejecting him for some stupid reason. I really do mess a bunch of things up.
"I left your phone here last night and you got a voicemail from Simon" he spoke up.
"Thanks" I said and smiled.
"I'm just, gonna um go" Harry said and left the kitchen. I could here his big feet running up the stairs.
I pick up my phone and listened to the message.
"Agent Tomlinson, is Simon. You need to come down to HQ ASAP. There's something that we need to discuss" he said and the message ended.
Well that sounds important...
I went upstairs and got ready. Before o left, I knocked on Harry's door.
"I gotta go to HQ," I told him,"I'll see ya later".
"Ok" I heard from the other side and I sighed. I went outside and grabbed a cab.
My heart beat sped up as I got closer. Something wasn't right...
When we pulled out, I payed the driver and went inside the building.
I went to the front desk, and the lady there immediately said,"Mr. Cowell's waiting on his office"
Okay now I know that something was off.
I took an elevator and went up to the fourth floor. I took a deep breath and then knocked.
"Come in" a voice said and I went in. "Sit" Simon said to me and I did.
"Mr. Cowell is there anything wr-" i began but was interrupted.
"There is actually" he said. "I should have spoken up before I discussed the mission, but none the less you need to know".
"Yes sir?" I asked.
"Louis", he said in a calm voice, "I don't know if this job is the right thing right now. Your performance in training exercises have been extremely low, expecially after that last mission...I know the last mission was tough on you and I know that you've been suffering lately because of it, but...Your causing danger for yourself, your team, and even the people you're trying to save. I don't think sending you back out there is a good idea. I don't think that you can handle it..."
"But I can sir! Plead give me a chance!" I pleaded.
"I'm sorry Louis, but this has gone too far"
"Sir I need this. I just need to get back out there and everything will get better! Just one more chance"
"You're too dangerous Agent Tomlinson. You don't understand how this affects everything. We already have another agent ready to replace you on this mission. You're not off the team. But your job overall is on a thin thread"
"Well what can I do?" I asked.
"Get better." Simon told me.
"And how do I do that?"
"Only you can know the answer to that..." Simon gave me a sad smile. "well I think that you should get going now, I got a meeting..."
I got up and left the room without a word. I don't think anything can explain what I'm going through right now....
Am I really so bad that I'm considered a danger?
I walked outside and my eyes started to sting.
Cmon Louis hold yourself together! Don't bawl like a baby!!!!
I walked to the fountain right outside of the office building. I sat on the edge and that's when I lost it.
I tucked my head between my knees and the tears streamed down my face. I was just happy that no one was around.
This wasn't fair! What did I do to deserve this? I know I'm being selfish but still.... I worked my whole life for this!
I got my phone out and dialed the numbers I knew from heart.
"Hello?" The voice answered
"Harry! Please listen to me. I-"
"Take it up with Lynn."he interrupted. "You seem to favor her over me"
"Harry please listen-" I pleaded.
"Sorry Louis but I'm actually busy" he said and that's when I started crying over the phone. "Lou?" Harry asked concerned. "Boo tell me what's wrong. Are in danger? Do you need help?"
"I lost it Harry! I'm not on the mission anymore, and probably not the team knowing my luck. I'm a d-danger to you guys and I'm scared and don't know what to do! And I don't have cash so I don't know how to get home..."
"Oh Lou..." He said softly. "You still at the office"
"Y-yeah"
"I'll be there in 5. You gonna be ok?"
"I t-think"
"Just hold on." He said and hung up.
Gosh I was a mess. I can't even take care of myself.
I'm just so useless!!!!
In literally 5 minutes time Harry was here and ran to me. When he saw me, he embraced me in a hug that I wouldn't expected him to give me....
"Oh Lou it's gonna be fine" he said soothingly and rubbed circles in my back. "I'm gonna make this better"
"H-how?" I asked.
"You'll see" he smiles cheekily. "Wait here and I'll be right back" he said and ran in the building.
I sat there for a good ten minutes before I saw that brown mop of curls again.
I got up and rushed over to him.
"What happened?" I asked.
"Well you're not fired."He said.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"So you're back on the mission..."
"Oh my gosh thanks Harry-"
"Wait" he interrupted. "You can't come with us. You're staying behind with the analysis team."
"Oh...well thanks for trying"
"It was the best that I could do Boo. At least you're still on the case..."
"True"
"But" oh no I hate these. "You can't slip up Louis. If you do, you're off the team...permanently"
"Ok what do I need to do?" I asked.
"Louis we've all been trying to help you. Lynn, me, the other boys... You've just rejected us. You need us Louis, and we need you...I need you"
Tears gathered in my eyes at his words.
"I need you too" I told him and we embraced. There was no kissing or any of that stuff, and maybe I wished that would happen.
But right now...I'm happy to have my Harry back.
A/N: sorry it's been so long. Gonna try to update more