Divergent: Christina's point of view

Chapter Twenty-Six!

It's later that evening, Tris was out of sight, and Will, Uriah, Lynn, Marlene, and I we're in the cafetria for lunch. There was a great meal, including cake for desert, and I really needed the cake, after going through a fear landscape today, I need a break, and right now I'm getting one.

"So com'n, what did you scardy cats have in your fear landscaps today?" Lynn says, she smiles widly, because she knows, that today Lynn did the best, she barley even looked scared.

"Spiders," Says Will. "Though, I thought that was kind of obvious." He says, as if trying to remind Lynn that we saw, how everyone reacted.

"Yeah well, incase you didn't get the memo, I got getting kicked out of Dauntless." I say.

"That must have sucked," Lynn says, her face gets a little intense, then she perks up. "I got suffication."

"Yeah," Uriah says, it's no secret that he's annoyed by Lynn. "We saw it on the screen."

"Yeah well, I past my fear in three minutes!"

"Yeah we-" Uriah begins, but Marlene interupts.

"Uriah!" Says Marlene, like a parent says t their child when they do something wrong. "Be nice, I think that Lynn, did a great job." I roll my eyes.

"Thank you Marle-"

"Even though we already heard it three times!" Marlene says, and we all (obviously except for Lynn) crack up, Marlene eats a piece of cake, innocently.

"It's okay," Says Lynn. "because I know that you're all saying this out of envy!"

"Yeah right." I say.

"Do you guys think that Tris is in trouble." Says Will. When no one responds he adds."You know because she slapped Fo-"

"Yeah we were there." Interups Uriah. "I'm not sure."

"Afterall we're in Dauntless!" I say.

"What's that supposed to mean?" Says Lynn.

"Well it doesn't look like Dauntless has an act of handeling situations." I say.

"That's not true." Says Marlene, in protest.

"Yeah well, when a kid got stabbed I don't think that the Dauntless cared so much for who did it." I say.

"Or when Peter, Drew, and Al attacked Tris, it didn't look like anyone was so eager to do something about it." Says Will, I smile at him. That's my guy, look at him backing me up! I think to myself.

"It doesn't matter, I just hope that Tris is okay!" Says Uriah.

"Yeah," Says Marlene. "Me too!"

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After dinner, Uriah, Lynn, and Marlene break away back to the doorm rooms. Will and I, walk near the train tracks. We decided that it would be nice not to be in an underground tunnel for a bit. So we walked here.

"So," Says Will. "Can you believe that we made it this far?"

"I know what you mean, it feels like we've been here forever. I'm so glad that we made it!" I say, with relief, yes the first stage was hard, but I'm just happy that it's over with.

"So do you think that we can make it through 'till the end?"

"Yeah, I do. So far everything has been good, we haven't doe too bad, we're kind of in the middle of the pack. There's always room to improve." I say. It's true, Since the Dauntless born initiates are mixed with the transfers, there are so many good ones, Will and I have done okay.

Will looks down, maybe he was embarrased, about last night, or thinks that we're just friends. I won't expect anything out of him. By the way he's behaving I don't think that anything is going to happen. He treats me like a girl,not like a girlriend, and I like it like that.

"That's good, we can improove. Hopefully we'll end up in a good enough rankings to get good jobs." He looks up, at me, and I notice that he looks calm, as if he had just made a desicion.

"Do you have your eyes on anyhing?"

"If I had a choice I woould like to be a leader in training, hopefully one day, I'll be a leader of Dauntless," He says. "How about you?"

"Nothing really, but it would be nice to be the initiates instructer, like Four job, you know get to boss around all the initiates."I say. "'Hey you, uh, do five push-ups' imagine all the fun I'll-"

Then something shocking happens, I feel a tingle in my stomach, and I feel warm, brave, and loved. Will stopped me with...with a kiss. He lips are warm against mine, and he kisses me lightly. I wrap my arms around his neck.

He moves his hands from my face, to my waist, and I feel him shiver, or is that me who shivered, I don't know, and right now I don't care. Then we break. I stare into his eyes. He looks nervous, and I can tell that so am I.

"Sorry," He says, looking nerous. "I don't know why I did that." It was so unexpected of him I thought that we were just having a normail conversation, then out of no where he kisses me.

I smile he touched my heart, and soul as others never have. Though I think I'm in shock, because I try to talk , but words refuse to leave my mouth. He looks like, he has just made a mistake. I try to talk again, but nothing comes out.

"Maybe we shouldn't have kissed." He says, then releases me, I try shaking my head, trying to signal him, not to leave, that I like it here with him. I hear the familiar sound of the train. Will walks causualy next to me. I can't speak, but maybe I don't have to.

"So um, Dauntless initiate trainer, that's cool." He says, trying to start the conversaion again. "You wil-"

 I grab his arm, and turn him twoards me, and this time, I am sure of what I'm doing. I kiss him, and it's his turn to be shocked, but by the way he's kissing me, obviously he's not shocked easily. We break apart, and I hug him.

"I like you too, a lot!" I say. Then the train passes by, and a few Dauntless jump off. They whistle when they see Will and I, he blushes. I hug him one last time. Then we go seprate ways, he goes to the cafetiria for dinner, and I go to the dorm.

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"Where have you been all day?” I ask, when Tris walk into the dormitory. The room is empty; everyone else is at dinner, I just needed to get some air after...Will. “I looked for you outside, but I couldn’t find you. Is everything okay? Did you get in trouble for hitting Four?” she shakes her head. I didn't actualy look for her, but I was curious where hse was.

“I just had to get away. I walked around for a long time,” Tris says. “And no, I’m not in trouble. He yelled at me, I apologized…that’s i t.” 

“Good,” I say. I am a hundered percent going to tell Tris about Will. Tris and I are really good friends. I feel like I can trust with almost any secret. “Because I have something to tell you.” I look over her head at the door and then stands on my tiptoes to see all the bunks—checking if they’re empty, I don't want anyone else to hear.

Then I sets my hands on her shoulders. “Can you be a girl for a few seconds?”

“I’m always a girl.” She frowns.

“You know what I mean. Like a silly, annoying girl.” She twirls her hair around her finger.

“’Kay.” I grin, I breath. “Will kissed me.”

“What?” Tris demands. “When? How? What happened?”

“You can be a girl!” I take my hands away from her shoulders. “Well, right after your little episode, we ate lunch and then we walked around near the train tracks. We were just talking about…I don’t even remember what we were talking about. And then he just stopped, and leaned in, and…kissed me.”

“Did you know that he liked you?” She asks, curiously.. “I mean, you know. Like that.”

“No!” I laugh, I was sure that we were friends, I liked him like that, but i had no idea that the feelings were also versitile. “The best part was, that was it. We just kept walking and talking like nothing happened. Well, until I kissed him.”

“How long have you known you liked him?”

“I don’t know. I guess I didn’t. But then little things…how he put his arm around me at the funeral, how he opens doors for me like I’m a girl instead of someone who could beat the crap out of him.” I laugh. I stretch the truth  bit, but I won't want to say that I liked him, so she would know that I kept things from her.

“I’m happy for you.”

“Thanks,” I exhale, I'm so relieved that everything is cool beetween us.. “I’m happy too. And I thought it would be awhile before I could feel that way…you know.” She sits down on the edge of my bed and looks around the dormitory. Some of the initiates have already packed their things.

Soon we’ll move into apartments on the other side of the compound. Those with government jobs will move to the glass building above the Pit. I won’t have to look at Al’s empty bed, but if Will gets a govenment job we'll be apart.

“I can’t believe it’s almost over,” I say. “It’s like we just got here. But it’s also like …like I haven’t seen home in forever.”

“You miss it?” I lean into the bed frame.

“Yeah.” I shrug, trying to play it cool. “Some things are the same, though. I mean, everyone at home is just as loud as everyone here, so that’s good. But it’s easier there. You always know where you stand with everyone, because they tell you. There’s no…manipulation."

“I don’t think I could have made it through Candor initiation, though.” I shake my head, I'ts harder to talk about then I thought. “There, instead of simulations, you get lie detector tests. All day, every day. And the final test…” I wrinkle my nose. “They give you this stuff they call truth serum and sit you in front of everyone and ask you a load of really personal questions. The theory is that i f you spill all your secrets, you’ll have no desire to lie about anything, ever again. Like the worst about you is already in the open, so why not just be honest?”

“Sounds awful,” Sh says.

“I always knew I couldn’t be Candor. I mean, I try to be honest, but some things you just don’t want people to know. Plus, I like to be in control of my own mind.” Don’t we all. “Anyway,” I inhale. I open the cabinet to the left of our bunk beds. When I pull the door open, a moth flutters out, its white wings carrying it toward my face. Oh crap!I think, I'm terrifyed of moths. I shriek.

“Get it off! Get it off get it off get it off!” I scream. The moth flutters away.

“It’s gone!” Tris says, then laughs. “You’re afraid of…moths?” From the way she says it,, it sounds rediculous. but Moths are something to be scared of.

“They’re disgust hose papery wings and their stupid bug bodies…” I shudder. Tris keeps laughing. She laugh so hard She falls onto the bed, and hold her stomach. I roll my eyes. “It’s not funny!” I snap. “Well…okay, maybe it is. A little.”