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As I looked down at my beautiful daughters face tears slowly rolled down my face. I decided to name her Adriana because Javaris also told me that's what he wanted to name her.
I was feeling so many different emotions at the moment. I was happy that my baby girl was here but I was beyond heart broken that Javaris wasn't here.
Javaris still had a whole life ahead of him. Many more things to learn and many things to teach our children.
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"Stop sitting around all depressed and shit" Nicole said walking into my room.
"I'm not in the mood right now" I said looking over seeing my children sleep.
I got up out of bed walking downstairs with Nicole behind me.
"London you need to stop stressing over that every body ass nigga" She said.
I turned around ready to smack fire from this bitch.
"Nicole I'm gone need you to realize that I'm not going through a break up right now, it's way deeper than that"
"London do you know how many other bitches are feeling the same way you are for no reason right now"
"Nicole shut the fuck up!" I yelled "I don't give a fuck what them other bitches are feeling because I'm not them!"
"Okay but he was treating them like they were you" She yelled.
"Bitch what got your ass so pressed!" I questioned "You mad for no fucking reason"
"Actually there is a reason and that's exactly why I'm over here"
"What's your reason then Nicole" I asked putting my hand on my hip and the other hand on the counter.
"Look me and Javaris used to have a thing some years ago so I feel that I should get a share of that money"
"Please realize that you said some years ago! As in multiple years bitch. Matter fact get out, you a real grimey disrespectful ass bitch"
"Gladly bitch" She said leaving out.
I shook my head. Bitches just always try to be relevant from irrelevant ass shit.
Epilogue
1 year later
"Ma" Adriana yelled wobbling towards me.
"Yes baby" I asked picking her up and walked towards the front door to keep a eye on Maliki.
"Eat, Eat" She said.
"Girl you just ate fatty" I said going to the kitchen and grabbed a little snack.
I opened the screen door going outside and sat on the porch sitting Adriana next to me and handed her the cheez itz.
"Mom can I go with J.P to his cousin house" Maliki asked running up to me.
"No" I said with out second guessing.
"Man why not" He complained.
"You know exactly why. You're not going end of discussion"
J.P was 16 and had a hot ass temper , I refuse to let my kids be exposed to this street and that's exactly what's going to happen if he goes with J.P. I know that from the neighborhood we live in my kids are gonna be exposed to some type of street stuff but it's my job to be sure they are safe at all times and nothing happens to them.
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After laying the kids down for bed I took a hot shower, got out, put lotion on and put on one of Javaris's shirts.
I checked on the kids then went downstairs and sat on the couch. I sat there looking at my necklace that Javaris had gave me. I got up pulling out a photo album of all his pictures.
I opened to the first page seeing a picture of me and him. I smiled as a tear rolled down my face.
Flashback*
"Baby just take the picture already" Javaris said as I fixed my hair.
"Okay I'm ready" I said standing in front of him and smiled.
"Girl if you don't move your big ass head" He said pushing my head.
"Javaris" I laughed.
"Thick ass, I'm trying to get in them jeans" He said smacking my ass. He leaned in kissing my cheek as he had his arms around me.
"Big head ass" He said.
"Bean head ass" I said.
"Girllllll" He dragged causing me to look at him and laugh and he smiled looking at me.
That's when the picture was taken.
Flashback over*
"I fucking miss my baby" I said quietly as I started to cry.