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CATCH UP CHAPTER
"Did I do good?" Rose hallway laughed
I nodded to her as I spoke to the operator. I laughed a bit too, she had the best spirit.
Once the operator hung up I checked on the baby. I instantly felt bad, he'd have to go back to the hospital soon. Not to mention Rose was hurt and she'd have to go through the after surgery pain again.
"I should've handled that on my own mamas. Look at you....then we gotta send lil man back for a few days till I can get someone we trust to look after him. I apologize."
"It's okay baby. I'll be fine, I can hear the ambulance now. He'll be fine too...we just have to make better decisions. We're parents now, ya know?"
"Yes baby, I know. It's time for you to go, I gotta stay here with him. I'll call another ambulance for him soon. I'll be there when you wake. I love you mamas."
"I love you too."
I placed a kiss on her forehead and allowed the paramedics to place her on the gurney. I waited until I couldn't hear the sirens anymore to move. Jr. was trying hard to keep his eyes open. I smiled slightly then placed his cloth diaper on my chest to hold him.
In the end we'd all be fine, everything will work itself out.
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After an hour or so of letting the baby sleep I called an ambulance to pick him up. He's been gone for around 2 hours and now I was on the way to Rose. I know she'll still be sleep but I needed to be there with her. I still held a sense of regret for earlier.
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I sat at Rose's bedside and stared from her to the clock, back and forth. I was eager to hear her voice. It had only been a couple hours but I missed her. In the last few weeks she's been through so much. She nearly died having baby Bryson, he nearly died, and now we're about to have a very public problem. She's about to get some much slander and hate.
I've been turning down all my interviews and appearances to be at home with her. We have, maybe 2 days of silence before Kays video hits the fan. Rose smashed her phone but iPhones save things from phone to phone and it's driving me insane.
Throughout all of this I've been keeping a firm face for Rose. I want to be strong for her, her shoulder to cry on. This weight is heavy as me as well though and now that she's sedated I can let a few tears fall.
"Mamas I hope you can hear me. I'm sorry. I need to mature a bit and protect you. Today is only the start of a wave of shit coming our way. I will protect you though it all. Starting with our son. I'll pull some strings and get a doctor to look after him and teach us some things about doing it ourselves. Until he's healthy."
Not to mention, I haven't spoken to Harley about what happen. I know she's full of questions and that'll just remind Rose of the bad aspects. I need her positive and focused on moving forward, happily. She's breastfeeding so she won't be able to take anti-depressants and she won't be able to exercise with her incision. Battling this postpartum is going to be tough. I have a lot on my shoulders.