Fire Starter [Minecraft Diaries Fanfic]

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"What did you just say?" I asked him. "A mother...you have a mother back in Tu'la" he confirmed. "What? What do you mean mother? My dead mother?" I asked him and he smiled "no, I'm talking about your very much alive mother"

My mind was spinning he's lying. This is just his dumb way of trying to make me feel better about Dominic. This isn't real. I ignored him and stared down at Dominic taking his hand in mine once again giving it a small squeeze. I'm here.

"What? Don't believe me? Come back to Tu'la and I'll give you her file. I'm not lying. I wouldn't lie about something like that" he said chuckling. I wouldn't know what he didn't lie about...the trust we have is a blinded one. I don't know if I can trust him and he doesn't know if he can trust me.

"This is a dangerous game you're playing Thoren..." I warned him. "It's not when you know the rules.." He stop back with arrogance. I rolled my eyes "Dominic doesn't need to be hearing this bullshit. I'm leaving" I told him making my way to the door"Oh. And who said this was bullshit?" He asked standing up I stopped as he towered over me. "I did" I said looking into his stormy eyes.

I hoped he would jut give up and say it was fake. But he didn't. And I didn't think he was going to... "So we're playing this game again? No problem. I like games" he said looking like he had all the time in the world. "Well I don't have time for games. So if you don't mind" I said trying to make my way around him and I was successful.

I made it to the hallway but not too far for him to not grab my wrist and pull me into a empty doctors office. "Thoren! Stop it! I need to go back to Dominic!"I told him tugging my hand but it didn't work. "Fine. I'll leave. have fun with your boyfriend" he spat at me. Why is he mad now? "Thoren...." I trailed off. "Why did you play me? Make me think you like me? Make me think you actually enjoy my company

I suppose I was blushing since I heard " Prick Charming bothering you?" If I thought I was smiling like crazy before I must've looked like Cheshire Cat at this point. "DOM!!!"I squealed and hopped on his hospital bed hugging him. He laughed painfully "oh. Sorry" I said still hugging him.

"No please...id love to wake up to this every morning." He smirked with his hands on my hips as I hugged him tighter. Then I realized what position we were in and I felt embarrassed. I began to crawl off "no please. A little longer Kat" he said tucking a piece of hair behind my ear. I smiled.

"Ooo fancy dress" he said scanning his eyes at the my outfit. "Thanks" I said. "So...are you leaving?" He said bluntly. Oh crap...he heard us talking? Damn it... "Uhh leaving where?" I asked him dumbly as I stood up and sat down on a chair. "Tu'la....are you going back to Tu'la?" He asked again with his voice sounding cracked, dry and weak. He could still barely move.

"I'm not going anywhere" I told him and he smiled. "Katie....please don't lie to me....I didn't Just loose my best friend for god knows how many months, almost bleed to death then wake up to see her just to have her lie to me" he said struggling to speak.

"I..." I thought about it. Was I going to go? No. I couldn't. He sounds too heartbroken. I left him. Abandoned him. He's never done that to me. He didn't deserve that. It's all my fault. "I'm not going anywhere" I said more confidently with a smile. He scanned my eyes searching for a fault in my words but found non. "I hope not...I fucking missed you so much" he said pulling me in and kissed me.

He kissed me. Dominic kissed me. He actually kissed me. I didn't know what to do. My heart was split in two. Time stopped. Everything stopped. My heart. My thoughts. Everything. Fire works sparked and doves flew. Butterflies fluttered and my world exploded.

He then finally said "I thought I was going to die. Out there. Defending my home....our home.....defending you. He was going to kill you....my big mouth got into trouble again...I suppose you really rubbed off on me. I know what I want, I have for a while. I didn't just save Ava but her child....when I was shot in the chest, I thought you'd come running....I thought you'd be here but you weren't and the fact I'd never see you again scared me. It scared me so much" he said as a tear ran down his cheek.

"I thought I'd never get to do that. I thought I'd never get to hear your voice or see your face again....and that scared me. You don't have to say anything....I won't make you....but, I love you" he said almost shamefully. "wow..." I said breathlessly. "I'm sorry......" He apologized. "I promise my.....faze...won't be a bother...." He promised looking sad.

I nodded "uh....okay....if...that's what you want" I told him then left. I don't know why but I was actually....sad. Devastated really. He said he loved me....then regretted it. I mean I guess I would too....no one wants to love a dirty magic user. I know I wouldn't.

I walked outside to see almost everyone in the village staring at me with hopeful smiles. I glared at them all, kept my head down and went to my room to rot...along with my broken heart.

I sat in my room letting the time fly past me like a breeze. I missed him. A part of me was gone without him. I come back to see him. I find out he's practically dead. I'm told my mother is alive. Then I find out he's okay....then he tells me he loves me. But regrets it and calls his love a faze. My heart was so twisted I didn't know what to do with it.

Maybe I should just go back to Tu'la....and see my mom. But...then what? Live there? The people are completely terrified of me...and...and then my arm....what that guard did to me.....it's all too much.

Scenes of darkness and screams flash in my mind. His laugh fills my memory I need to block them out...block it all out. But the only way to do that is to remember it all. I need to think of what I must forget about.

I think I've heard of a memory wiping spell before. I could use it. But I can only make it temporary....my magics aren't good enough to make it permanent. I'll take what I can get. It's the only way.....right? It seems like everyone is happy but me.

I just...I thought if I came back id be happy. I want to be happy. Why do I rather kill or upset others? Because you're fire....your destructive...you burn things to the ground...you're meant to kill and ruin things...it's what you do best....

The words rang in my head. I couldn't recall where I've heard them from...but they were once said to me. Is it true? I'm...meant to kill? Meant to...ruin things? Do I not get a happy ending? No. I'm an element. I'm suppose to practically live forever...I'm not meant to love. It's true. I'm not capable of such..and I suppose I never will....If people wanna see red. I'll make them see red.

Fuck love....I was not created for love. And plus...loving me is only a faze, right?