Sad magcon imagines

Hayes and I got in a fight over the stupidest thing. It was Friday night, it's now Monday, we got in a fight simply over the fact his friend commented on my photo then he called me a "cheating, lying whore" that he never wants to see again.

I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't function, I take like six midol every 6 hours.

This is the picture^^ (btw this is actually me😂😂)

His friend, Alec, I think his name is.. Commented "Damn babygirl😍❤️💦 even when you're being weird you still slay.😘😻🔥"

Then Hayes came home and yelled at me.

The fight went like this..

"FOR REAL?" He said slamming the front door yelling at me

"What?" I asked obviously confused.

"YOU'RE CHEATING ON ME, WITH ALEC, ONE OF MY BETS FRIENDS!" He yelled throwing his hands in the air.

"What the hell are you talking about?" I said scrunching my nose and furrowing my eye brows.

"You cheated on me, don't lie.." He yelled lowering his voice.

"Whatever." I scoffed

"I'm leaving." He said said walking to the door.

Being the petty bipolar bitch I am I said "bye." While waving.

I haven't been on social media since that night I threw my phone at the wall and it shattered.

So anyone could call me and I wouldn't know. We have a house phone but it hasn't been plugged in for a while. I decided to plug it in.

There were 3 missed calls already from.. Hayes. Alright.

He left one voice message.

"Hey, you're probably mad at me right now.. But I'll be by later to get my things.. Call me back whenever. "

I cried instantly.

Were 'we' over?

Probably.

I sank to the ground and cried.

I hugged my knees and out my hands to my face.

I cried for what felt like hours.

When in reality it was probably only an hour.

I was in the middle of my thoughts that ruin my life when I heard a knock at the door.

It was also now night.

Great.

I ran to the door and opened it.

I saw Nash.

"Hey.." He said

"Hi.." I said fixing my bun.

"Can I come in..?" He asked

"Yeah.. If anyone's in the car they can also come in. " I said faking a smile

"I'll go get Taylor." He said jogging to the car.

They came Ina me shut the door.

They joined me on the couch and then Nash started talking again.

"What happened between you two?" He asked me

"To be honest I don't know, he accused me of cheating on him with Alec and then he stormed off and left. Then I shattered my phone last night so I plugged in the house phone a few hours ago and got a voicemail from Hayes that said he was coming to get his things later on tonight." I said tearing up.

"I'm so sorry." He said hugging me

"Honestly it's fine." I said wiping my tears and grabbing a water bottle.

"Do you guys want a water bottle?" I asked

They both politely said yes.

I gave them both a water and sat back down on the couch.

Nash said he needed to go home and then they left.

Once they left I grabbed my laptop and played my YouTube playlist called 'I'm an emotional bitch' which wasn't a lie.

The first song was Memories by Shawn Mendes.

I tried to drink my water but I was gasping for air.

I kept crying and gasping.

It was like something had me by my throat.

My breathing finally calmed down and I took a drink.

My throat and eyes hurt like a bitch but I knew I was about to have the biggest break down ever.

I stood up and took off my hoodie and leggings and ran upstairs and changed into shorts and his hoodie and knee high socks.

When I came back downstairs I punched the wall as soon as 'our song' came on, it was Special by young thug.

I hit the wall over and over again until the song was over.

Once it was over the wall had like twenty holes and my knuckles looked like a blood bath.

I knew I would regret it tomorrow.

I went to the front door and started to lock it when someone started pounding on the front door screaming my name.

I looked through the peep hole and saw Tez and Hayes.

I let them in and ran to the living room.

I didn't stop crying. I just cried while yet again another song played, this time it was 'Act like you love me - Shawn Mendes', Shawn and I are actually really close ironically.

Hayes walked in and stopped mid-walk when he saw the holes. He looked pissed.

He walked upstairs and stayed there.

Tez came in and sat by me, he hugged me.

When I went to reach for my water bottle he started at my hands.

Fuck, I forgot about them.

"Noel, give me your hand." He said

I gave him my shaky hands.

"HAYES" Tez yelled panicky

"What?" He yelled coming down the stairs.

I tried to grab my hands and hide my face but Tez wouldn't let me move my hands.

Hayes sat on the other side of me.

"Why?" He said tears eyed.

"What did I do wrong?" I asked sobbing and gasping for air.

"What? Nothing." He said hugging me

"Then why are you leaving?" I asked. It felt like my heart was literally being ripped out of my body.

"You act like it's easy to see you hurt." He said crying

"Why am I hurt?" I said asking a rhetorical question

"I accused you of cheating." He said crying

"Did I?" I asked again crying violently

"No." He said looking down also crying

"Did you?" I asked sadly.

"Umm.. Yeah." He said crying.

I got up right then and there and grabbed my water. I out on my vans and left.

I had no place to go but I wasn't worried.

I was too busy crying to worry if I was gonna survive any longer.

I didn't want to.

I had just found out the love of my life cheated on me.

I was walking when I felt someone beside me.

It was Alec, great.

I rolled my eyes and wiped my tears ready for new ones to take the old ones position.

"What do you want?" I asked coldly

"That's no way to talk to someone who wants to help." He said cockily

"What do you mean?" I asked

"Well, he cheated on you right?" He asked smirking

"Yeah.." Said crying again.

"Well maybe you should cheat on him.." He said trying to hug me

"I don't know who you think I am but I'm not gonna fuck anything else up. I already ruined my parents life, isn't that enough?" I said crying again.

He then left me and I walked to the woods.

I found this creek.

It was beautiful.

I sat down on a huge rock and cried again.

"Why do I always have to fuck up?" I whispered

"Why do I always get fucked over?" I said a little louder

"Why am I that unloveable? Maybe it's true you can't love a mistake." I said choking on my tears while gasping again.

I took a drink of my water again and cried and cried.

I had no way to tell the time so I guess I'll go home when I see the sun..

I sat on the Rock and thought about everyone's life I ruined, why people hate me, all my flaws, why no one can love me, why everyone cheats on me, why no one will ever even fall in love with me.

I was snapped out of a thought by a sudden urge of anger. I walked over to this tunnel next to the rock and hit it until my knuckles were yet again a blood bath.

I couldn't stop.

I turned around and saw someone watching me.

I blew them off and kept crying and shaking and hitting.

They got closer and closer until they were behind me.

They were crying.

They were also really small.

It was Skylynn.

"No-Noel, are you okay?" She hiccuped out while I wiped her tears.

"Yeah." I said wiping my own.

"Hayes is scaring me." She said crying.

"Why are you even awake?" I asked her holding her crying also.

"He woke me up and I couldn't go back to sleep so I ran away from him. He wouldn't stop yelling." He hiccuped out again.

I gave her a drink of my water as my left the creek.

I was still holding her.

We were a few blocks from her house so I carried her the whole way there, she fell asleep half way there.

I was still crying.

When we got to the front door I knocked whirl crying.

Elizabeth opened the door and asked me to come in.

"Where did you find her?" She asked worried

"I was at a creek when Sky ran over to me crying." I said wiping my tears.

I gave her Sky before heading towards the door.

"Noel, honey, if you see Hayes will you send him home?" She asked

"Yeah." I said fake smiling as I closed the door.

As soon as I closed the door it started raining and I was crying again.

I was halfway home when my depression kicked in.

My depression was telling me I was worthless and he doesn't love me.

Then it's best friend anxiety decided to tag along so anxiety told me I deserved to die and no one would miss me.

I got to my house and went through the back door and took off my hoodie and short. I already took off my socks and shoes.

I wiped my tears and went to the room and saw Hayes and Tez.

I just went to the closet and got another hoodie, spandex, a new bra and new knee high socks. Then I went into the bathroom and changed.

Tez was rubbing Hayes' back as Hayes cried.

I doubt he would cry over me.

No one loves me.

I got dressed and went back downstairs.

I grabbed a new water bottle.

I sat on the couch and Hayes sat next to me.

He said "I'm sorry, can we please act like it never Happened? I promise I will never over react again, I promise, please just don't leave me" he was crying and gasping for air.