Jacob Sartorius
"I draw with silver and it turns red. Magic."
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"I don't love you anymore"
"I never loved you"
"You never meant anything to me"
His words kept flooding my mind. I meant absolutely nothing to him and he was my world.
He was my everything and I was just another girl.
We were together for 3 years and it meant absolutely nothing to him.
He's right honestly I'm done. I'm going to kill myself. I'm going to allow all hell to break loose.
I wrote only Jacob a note because he was the only person I had. It said:
"Dear Jacob,
I decided that you're right. Maybe I should kill myself. I'm sorry I meant absolutely nothing you when you were my world, I'm sorry I'm not her, I'm sorry I am such a fuck up and you deserve better.
I hope those 3 years of us are just a memory because I'm gone and they should be too.
But I'm magic, I draw with silver and it turns red. Magic. Right? Well it's magic to me because I started off living and now I'm dead. Magic. We lasted 3 years but it meant nothing to you. Magic.
I'm sorry you had to put up with me...
~ (y/n)"
I also decided to make one last younow.
"Hey guys, as everyone knows I'm (y/f/n) (y/l/n), Jacob and I broke up and I think I'm done. You guys have heard some pretty terrible things about me from him but I guess I hate me too. Thank you for anyone who cared about me, right now I don't see the point in breathing or living anymore. Thanks you guys, peace out girl scout!"
I ran up to my bathroom and found my old friends. They variate in sizes, I decide to use my favorite razor of them all. I made cuts on my thighs, stomach, shoulders, hips and anywhere else. I also found a bottle of my old sleeping medicine. I decided to take the whole bottle.
Everything was spinning, everything was fading black, I did it. I'm finally dead.
Jacob's P.O.V.:
My Twitter was blowing up with notifications with variations of "check (y/n)'s younow." . I was thrown off track by a call from Blake. I answered
Blake: "Have you seen (y/n)'s Younow?"
Jacob: "No, why?"
Blake: "Something is very wrong?"
Jacob: "What do you mean?"
Blake: "She might have killed herself."
Jacob: "What? She wouldn't do that, she is too smart."
Blake: "Seriously watch her latest Younow then go check on her."
Jacob: "okay, thanks man."
Blake: "anytime"
Then I hung up.
What does he mean she might have killed herself? She's way too smart for that.
I was watching (y/n)'s new younow and I couldn't even finish it. I am so scared that she might actually do something, I ran over to her house not caring about the distance.
When I got there I ran straight through her house to her bedroom, she wasn't in there so I went into the bathroom.
As I opened the door I noticed hella blood, I dropped to my knees crying seeing (y/n) cold and dead with a note saying my name in her hand.
I called the cops. They have an ambulance on the way but I can't stop thinking about that note, I'm slipped out of my thoughts by a paramedic tapping on my shoulder.
He didn't even try to save her, it was too late.
They asked me if I was Jacob. Then they handed me the note.
They note broke me.
I killed her.
I killed her all because I was stupid.
We were 16. I was gonna wait until her birthday to ask her to marry me.
I never loved her. I fucking loved her. I didn't want her. I needed her. She never meant anything to me. She meant EVERYTHING TO ME.
She is really gone.