Matt pt.1
Today was April 25th 2016, it's been two months since Matt and I broke up. We have had no contact. Since I've been isolating myself from everyone, my phone is always blowing up with notifications, I'm a Youtuber and I used to update very day but everyone is worried about me. Matt calls me at least twice a day even though we broke up. I don't want to get hurt anymore, I've been cutting and burning my skin. I've been turned into an alcoholic, I've changed a lot and I don't even know how to feel anymore... I mean I still love Matt but I mean if he loved me he would check on me instead of just calling me.
*2 hours pass*
I got a call from Crawford, a mutual friend between Matt and I. I answered because why not, I can't ignore the world forever.
Me: Hello?
Crawf: Hey, (y/n)!
Me: How are you?
Crawf: Good, how are you?
Me: I'm fine, why did you call?
Crawf: I wanted to know if you want to hangout?
Me: yeah sure. What time?
Crawf: About 5, be ready..
Me: Okay! See you soon
Crawf: Bye
Me: Bye
Then I hung up. I have 2 hours until Crawf will be here. I decided to cut myself because I'm worthless and why not, I grabbed my blades and looked at the wide variety... I chose a normal blade from a razor, I took the blade and slowly slide it across any skin that hasn't already been cut. I cut my wrists, my thighs, my ankles, my shoulders and my stomach. It only took me about twenty minutes until I was done cutting. I decided to clean up all the flowing blood and to clean the cuts so Crawf wouldn't notice. Once I was done I had twenty minutes until Crawford was gonna be here. I went into my closet and chose a red YouTube hoodie and some gray leggings, I slipped on my red vans and grabbed my phone as I waited for his text. My makeup and hair were done as soon as I woke up so I didn't need to do it, he told me that he was close so I grabbed my keys and locked my door and got in his car.
Me: "Hey, Crawf!"
C: "Hey, Noel! I'm gonna need you to put this on" *he hands me a blindfold*
Me: "okay" *i put it on with no hesitation*
*10 minutes pass*
He stopped the car and told me to keep the blindfold on and he would guide me, I agreed because I love surprises. We were in a building, it seemed like an apartment complex. When we finally reached the destination he knocked on the door and told me to take off my blindfold. I dropped as soon as I saw Matt, I was crying hysterically. I tried to run but Crawf made me stay. We all sat in Matts apartment, I went to what used to be my favorite chair and sat down. I saw another girls things, I tried to ignore them but they were scattered everywhere.
"Why am I here?" I asked Crawf still crying
"Because you miss him and he misses you." Crawf replied.
"He sure misses me, doesn't he? I mean he has another girls things scattered all around his flat, but he still loves me right? He hurt me... But he loves me right!? I cried
"How did I hurt you? That stuff is my girlfriends too." Matt replied bluntly
*i took off my hoodie and leggings, I had shorts on though* "I don't know Matthew, you wanna tell me? I have been cutting and burning my skin, I haven't ate or slept in weeks. I can't even think straight anymore... But you're fine without me, obviously" I replied...
"Oh my god" Crawford said crying.
I didn't want them to find out like this but this was me and I hate myself even more now, I put my leggings and hoodie back on and slipped on my vans before letting myself leave. Matt and Crawf tried to follow me but I screamed "LEAVE ME ALONE. JUST LET ME GO, IT'S NOT LIKE I MATTER ANYWAYS", they stopped dead in their tracks and watched as I got further and further away...