Matt pt.2
I walked away that night from my best friend and the best thing that has ever happened to me. I got home and instantly broke down. They saw my scars, my new cuts, my burn marks, and I told them everything. I just wanted to die right then, maybe I could drink the pain away. I didn't bother locking my door because I'd rather risk dying then live another day in hell.. I grabbed all nine bottles of liquor I had left and started chugging one after another, I was on my third bottle when my front door flew open. I saw the last person I wanted or see, Matthew. "Why are you here?" I asked. "To stop you from throwing your life away, (y/n), you're worth so much more than this. Please stop." He pleaded crying. I was too drunk to care, "Why do you care, you have you're new girlfriend. You have anything you could ever want to why are here? I'm nothing, Matthew, I'm worthless. I don't get why you ever loved me!" I screamed sobering up a bit. "Because, I care about you. You're not worthless, I promise. I wouldn't lie to you.. I loved you because you were you." He cried out, I just chuckled before screaming... "YOU SURE LOVED ME RIGHT? YOU MUST OF GIVEN SO MANY FUCKS ABOUT ME TO MOVE ON THAT QUICK, I MEAN DAMN MATTHEW, AM I REALLY THAT EASY TO FORGET. AM I REALLY THAT WORTHLESS, OBVIOUSLY YOU DIDN'T CARE ABOUT ME THAT MUCH IF YOU MOVED ON THE NEXT DAY. YOU WOULDN'T LIE TO ME, YOU LIED TO ME WHEN YOU TOLD ME WE WOULD BE TOGETHER FOREVER. YOU FUCKED ME UP, I LITERALLY WANT TO DIE. I THINK OF SCENARIOS OF HOW I CAN DIE ALL THE TIME, YOU WERE THE ONLY THING KEEPING ME SANE AND NOW THAT YOU'RE GONE SO AM I." I screamed crying.
"I'm sorry, I will leave you alone. I'm sorry, I still love you (y/n)" he said crying.
"Just leave you bloody liar, I'm tired of this bullshit." I spat
Maybe I lost Matt for good. Maybe I lost myself for good. Maybe I've lost everything for good, all I know is I wanna run away. I'm gonna run tomorrow I will stop at the store before vanishing for good. But as if tomorrow I'm gone... I hope everyone is happy, they broke me beyond repair and I can't even look at myself without being disgusted. Oh the things we love will definitely hurt us the most. I went to bed and set an alarm for 6:30 am. At 6:30 am my journey begins and I'm leaving this life behind. Goodbye pain, hello happiness.