[04]
it was the end of the day, i wanted to leave. i couldn't right now.
my father came home late, and he doesn't like it when we eat dinner without him. my father coming home late resulted in an argument at the dinner table, and me struggling not to yell at them to stop. the last time i yelled it didn't end well for me.
i barely finished my dinner. i took my dishes into the kitchen but before i could even place them in the sink, i heard a loud slap followed by a cry. not daring to say anything, i quickly went up to my bedroom.
i hated this. my mother is hurting, physically and emotionally. so am i. neither of them care about me and i just want to leave them and never come back.
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it was cold, but i didn't think to wear my
big coat instead of my jacket. i just needed to get out.
i saw him. a nice coat and a scarf covering half of his face.
i sat next to him.
"why are you here?" he asked.
i didn't expect him to say anything.
"are you here because of me?"
i looked at him, tears in my eyes. "no, jonghyun. i'm not. i just wanted to get out of the house, that's all."
i was hoping he didn't see that i was crying. i didn't want to be reminded of why i was here. honestly, i was here for more than one reason.
he took his scarf off, and put it around my neck. "you should've dressed warm."
we stared at each other for five seconds before he brought his hand up my face, wiping my tears.
jonghyun checked his watch, and stood up.
"goodnight, and please don't cry."
i watched him walk away, and started crying again. not because i was sad he was leaving,
but because someone actually cares for me.