Raura [ON HOLD]

*A/N hey guys, I'm so bummed out that this chapter glitched and I lost it, I tried my best to rewrite it, but it sucks oh well...
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"She's awake."

Without thinking, I get up and run straight past the doctor, towards the ICU.

"Sir! You are not permitted to go in there!" He calls behind me.

I don't answer him, and I continue to walk towards her.

I'm so nervous about seeing her. All this time I've just been concerned about her being better (and I'm so happy she's better), but now that she is I find myself getting scared about seeing her.

I don't know what she's gonna think of me, well actually I do....and that's what makes me scared.

I know she hates me, and that she's probably even disgusted with me..I know I am.

But I have to see her, she needs to know that I'm sorry and that I've never stopped thinking about her. She needs to know that she took my heart the moment I saw her, I jut couldn't accept it because I thought I still loved Courtney. Truth is, it's always been Laura. Always. And it's always going to be her. I'm hers.

I sneak into the ICU and I spot her across the room.

She's beautiful. She's slightly pale and her eyes have a hint of pink in them but nonetheless, she looks breath taking.

I make my way towards her bed and when our eyes meet, I feel my knees getting weak.

Suddenly I start to think of how I must look. I haven't slept or bathed since she was hospitalized. I must look like shit. Crap.

I feel my cheeks get hot just thinking about how horrible I must look, but I manage to keep walking towards her.

She looks surprised to see me, and when I reach her she says, "You're not the first person I expected to see."

Her tone is firm, but not cold. She looks happy to see me, I can see it in her eyes. I just hope she can't see how I'm practically dying inside, just by the sight of her.

I nervously chuckle, "Yeah, well Vanessa should be here in a few."

She smiles and nods.

"So how ya feelin?" I ask.

So stupid. Of course she's not fine, I mean she's in a freaking hospital! Way to remind her about that, Ross. God I'm so dumb.

"I'm okay, been better." She says. "How bout you?"

"I'm just glad you're okay." I say, truthfully, "I couldn't bear losing you."

Her cheeks turn slightly pink, and I feel my heart quicken. How does she do this to me? If she only knew how much power she has over me...

She could literally say, 'Lick a toilet seat.' And I'd lick a million toilet seats.

"So..." She says.

I've only know realized that I've been spacing out, and embarrassment floods my body.

"Yeah?" I say.

"Anything else that you're doing here? Besides checking up on me?" She says, in a curious tone.

"Well honestly....I have a question for you. It's been bugging me ever since this mess happened." I start.

"What is it?"

I take a deep breath and uneasily ask, "Why'd you jump in front of that car for me? I mean, it's obvious that you hate me and that you never wanna see me again. I just don't know why you did that. No matter how hard I think about it."

She smiles, "Ross....I don't hate you. I..I thought I did, but now I realize that I could never hate you. No matter what. I still care about you Ross, and I know that makes me very stupid but I can't help it. So there ya go."

My heart starts beating very fast, and I can't control the smile on my face. "Really?"

"Yes."

My smile fades, "You don't know how happy that makes me Laur, but I don't deserve any part in your heart. And I most definitely don't deserve your forgiveness."

"Well, I can't pick what my heart wants...and for some odd reason my heart insists on reserving a space in it for you, but that doesn't mean that I've forgiven you. Sorry Ross, but just because I care about you doesn't mean that I'm still not hurting about...about what happened."

"I know. Laura I'm so grateful that you still care about me, despite all the dumb shit I've done. I...I know now that I was an idiot and an asshole for what I did to you. And you don't know how much I hate myself for causing you pain." I could feel my eyes starting to water, and all I could think of was, 'Don't cry'. "I'm really sorry Laura. I don't deserve your forgiveness, but I just want you to know that I've started to see the error of my ways, and I've started to see that you and I had something special. That I ruined. And not having you in my arms has helped me realize that despite everything that's happened I still lo-"

"Laura?" A voice calls out from behind me.

I turn around and see....

Andrew. .-.

"Andy!" Laura practically squeals.

They embrace in a tight hug, and my heart practically falls to the ground.

A tear escapes my eyes and I leave before they see me.

I make it back to the waiting room and everyone sees my teary eyes.

"Is she okay?!" Vanessa worriedly asks.

"Yeah she's fine." I say, my sadness turning into anger as I remember what Vanessa and Stormie have been hiding from Laura, and jealousy from seeing "Andy" and Laura together bubbles over. "Why haven't you gone to go see her, huh? You know she asked about you."

"Yeah, I'll be there in a bit I just.."

"You just what?"

"Stormie and I have to tell you something."

"What?"

"We've decided not to tell Laura about the incident. We think it's too much for her to handle right now...we should wait until she recovers.."

"Too much for her or too much for you. I bet that's why you haven't gone to see her, you can't look at her and lie anymore, can you?" I mumble.

"What?" Stormie says, getting up from her seat.

"You heard me. I think you two are cowards, and you don't want to own up to what you did to her."

"That sounds funny coming from you." Riker says, stepping behind Vanessa.

"I've apologized to Laura. I've owned up to what I've done. And it's only fair to her, that she knows. I know I would want to know. She deserves the truth. That's her right! And if you aren't gonna tell her, I will."

"He's right." My dad cuts in, "Stormie, that poor girl has been through enough. It's time to end the lies."

Stormie sighs, "You're right Ross, we need to tell her."

"I guess you're right." Vanessa agrees. "Let's just wait till we can take her home at least?"

"Fine." I say, "I'm sorry for being so pushy, but thank you for understanding."

She nods. "I should go see her now."

"I'll go with you." Riker says.

They walk to the ICU, and I can't help but feel happy that Andrew and Laura aren't gonna be alone anymore.

I look over at Stormie and her face is sad.

"What's wrong?" I ask.

"That girl...my girl...she's gonna hate me. I've been nothing but mean to that poor child and I've made her life impossible. She's never gonna want me.."

I slightly laugh, "Looks like we're in the same boat."

I lean my head on her shoulder and say, "Don't worry, she'll understand. I know her. She doesn't have a mean bone in her body. It's kinda amazing."

"Thanks hun." She whispers.

We stay like that for a while and then she finally says, "Now that she's awake, you should go take a showers and rest. You really look like you need it."

"Gee thanks." I sarcastically say.

"I'm serious. Go on, Riker came on your bike this morning, you can drive it back."

I slightly laugh.

"What?" She asks.

"It's ride. I can ride it back."

"Oh whatever. Here, Riker left the keys in his jacket." She says, and tosses me the keys.

"Whatever you say." I smile and take the keys.

I walk out of the hospital and spot my bike.

I catch my reflection in the mirrors of the bike and Stormie was right.

I literally look like a homeless person. It's kinda funny actually.

I can't wait to go home and take a shower and a nap. I really need that.

But as I'm riding my bike home, I can't stop thinking about a pair of chocolate brown eyes, and how I wish I would've remained at the hospital. How I wished that I could've finished that last sentence that I wanted to tell her.

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A/N

OKAY SO THERSZ THAT CHAPTER.

How was it?

I swear it was so annoying re writing that. That's why I took so long to update. I really hate redoing things.

And that's also why I never proof read lmao

I'll try to update faster since its summer.

Thanks to all of you beautiful people for being so patient with me.

I love you~

ANYWAYS

How has your summer been going?

What do you think is gonna happen next in the story??

And what's your favorite song from Sometime Last Night??

Just curious ^.^

OH! AND MAH BDAY IS NEXT MONTH YASS!!

I want another piercing for my present :p

As you can tell I'm really tired and hyper I shouldn't write this late at night, but i like it. It gives me inspiration, and it's quiet and no one can interrupt me.

ANYWAYS (again)

Byeee <3 and take care!!