I spilled my coffee while writing about you

One night
I was at your house
we talked a lot
and you opened up

You told me something
I didn't expect to hear
I was completely shocked
when you burst out

That when you kissed me
it felt like the first time
you never had it with
anyone

You said it was special to you
and it meant a lot to you
if I kissed you that night
I was at your house

I could barely talk
so I said no
I told you next time
I'll show you the real me
The me you've never seen before

But "next time"
never happened

You lost so much.