Chapter 33
Harmony
"So you're just going to act like you didn't see my call" A female yelled as Jamal and I walked out of the house.
"Didn't I tell you not to come to my fucking house" Jamal said pushing the girl towards her car.
"Well I told your dumb ass to stop playing with me" She yelled.
I sat down on the porch and watched them go back and forth with each other.
"Get to fucking stepping Tonya" Jamal said.
"You know what... Fuck You" She said snatching a necklace off and threw it at Jamal.
Once she got in her car and left, Jamal just stood there and didn't turn around.
"So that's what we on now" I asked calmly as I stood up.
"Harmony" He said running his hands down his face.
"She must be special if you buying this bitch necklaces and shit" I stood directly in front of him.
"No she's not that shit is old"
I stared at him for a while before walking back into the house.
"I thought we were going to eat"
"Nigga fuck you" I said then closed the door.
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I sat in my living room with candles lit and a glass of wine in my hand. I couldn't do anything without thinking about my life.
Will I ever be happy? Will I ever find true love? Or will I die alone? The only thing that makes me happy these days is my son. I will raise him to respect women.
They say that falling in love at a young age will bring you nothing but hurt if you're in love with the wrong person. But love will bring you hurt at any age. Love will make you do crazy things. How do you even know if somebody loves you back?
Eventually I gave up on love and started giving my body to men that didn't deserve it. I started looking for love in men that I knew weren't any good, but being me, I always tried to find the good in people. Or I would remove myself from a bad situation just to get into another one. I've been hurt so many times that I almost came to a point that I was accepting the abuse. Physical and mental abuse. I just want to be happy.
"God please help me" I cried putting my glass down on the table.
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"Harmony" I heard my name followed by someone shaking me.
I opened my eyes and looked up seeing Jay standing over me.
"You okay" He asked lifting my feet so he could sit then placed them on his lap.
"I will be" I said sitting up a little. I must have cried myself to sleep.
"You could of started a fire, falling asleep with these candles lit"
"They aren't lit" I said looking at the candles.
"Yeah cause I blew them out" He said chuckling.
"What you doing here? You need something?"
"No something just told me to come check on you"
"I appreciate that Jay" I smiled laying my head on the back of the couch.
"Go freshen up, I want to bring you somewhere. You don't have to get fancy you can stay in that"
I looked down at the Victoria secret leggings I was wearing along with the shirt.
"Jay it's going on 2 in the morning"
"Just come in Harmony" He said standing up and pulled me with him.
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"It's so pretty out here" I said as we sat looking at the city lights.
"It's crazy how much fucked up shit happens in a such a beautiful city"
I nodded my head agreeing.
"I heard what happened earlier with Jamal" He said looking at me.
"I really don't want to talk about it"
"That's your problem. You need to stop holding everything in"
"I just want to be happy Jay" I said softly.
"So it's time for you to let all that hurt go. Get up he said pulling my hands. "Look over this city and yell that you want to be happy"
"You're crazy" I laughed shaking my head.
"Do it" He said with a straight face.
"Are you serious"
"Very" He smiled.
I turned around looking at the city and took a deep breath. "I want to be happy" I yelled.
"Feels good huh?" He asked.
I turned around and smiled. "Real good. Like everything just got lighter on my shoulders"