4. Caged In
A/N: This chapter has to deal with what's going on inside Louis's mind. So it takes off right when the first book ended. So it all kinda takes place in the past. I'll let u guys know when it gets to the present. :) If it gets confusing don't be afraid to ask questions.
Louis's pov
~end of first book~
"Louis we gotta go!" Harry screamed and dragged me through a hallway. I looked down at myself and saw blood all over my stomach.
"W-hats happening?" I asked frightfully.
"No time to explain. We gotta get out of here. They killed Liam and Niall."
We ran through the halls and ended in a large dark cement room like the one that I was shot in.
"Harry! Louis!" Lynn shouted and ran towards us.
"Lynn no!!!!!" Harry shouted a sound of thunder went off and Lynn fell to the ground.
"NOOOO!!!!" I screamed. I turned to Harry and saw a gun in his hand. "What are you doing Haz?" I asked cautiously.
"It's too late for us". He said emotionlessly. He pointed it to him.
"Harry don't-" boom and he dropped to the floor.
My eyes widened. The whole world was fading in and out. I saw Sam walking towards me with a gun. I tried to back away but I was frozen in place. The gun fired at me, but I couldn't feel anything. Shot after shot I couldn't feel a thing.
"This is all your fault" Sam said and pulled the trigger one last time.
~*~*~*~*
My eyes shot open and I was panting. I was on the train. Oh God that was just a bad dream, but somehow I doubt that it was going to be the only one.
~*~*~*~*
As I got off the train I felt droplets of rain fall on my arm. When I went to brush it off my heart stopped. It didn't look like rain, but drops of blood.
I tried rubbing it off but it didn't work. It smears and more and more drops covered my arm.
My breathing became irregular and the world started turning fuzzy. I rubbed my arm harder and harder but nothing worked.
"Louis?" A voice broke me out of my trance. I looked up and saw Sam standing right in front of me.
I blinked l and Sams figure was replaced with my mums.
"Louis is that you? You're going to get sick standing out here" she said with her hands on her hips.
I smiled and went to hug her.
As we hugged I looked over her shoulder and saw Caroline with a gun in her hand.
"Louis? Louis? Louis!" My attention snapped to my mother. "You alright?" She asked worriedly.
"Uh y-yeah"
"Let's go then" and we walked off together.
~*~*~*~*
~two weeks later back in London~
"Hey Louis do you want breakfast?" Harry called out from our shared flat.
"Yeah I'll be down in a minute" I said emotionlessly.
I was staring out the window of my flat. It was raining but I saw what I did the day on the train.
Rain was blood and the people walking by were the ones who tried to kill me.
I admit that I'm not okay. I've accepted that about a week ago. I know that the others know that I'm not okay.
They're afraid of me. I mean who wouldn't be?
I'm a monster.
I see hallucinations on a daily basis. I freak out at every little thing. I lash out on my friends when they're trying to help me.
I'm scared of myself too. I've over heard their talks.
Niall thinks I've gone mad.
Lynn thinks I have PTSD.
Liam says he thinks I need to get help.
And Harry?
Harry thinks that I'm going through a 'phase'.
Yeah some phase. I honestly thought that things were going to get better when we moved in together, but things didn't turn out like that.
He's more like my nanny than my friend. I mean it's kind of my fault though.
I don't eat because I'm constantly nervous.
I don't sleep because I'm scared of my own dreams.
I'm caged in my own mind.
~*~*~*~*~*
~one week later~
"Louis open the door!" Harry shouted as he pounded my bedroom door. He probably heard the shattering of my mirror. I don't even want to go there to say why it's broken...
"G-go away" I said weakly.
"No I can help!" He shouted back. "I'm giving you to the count of three Lou"
"1"
Take a deep breath
"2"
Pull yourself together
"3"
Prepare to lie
"Oh my gosh are you ok Lou?" Harry asked frantically.
"Yeah I just tripped"
Lie
"Oh well I help you pick it up"
"No- just please go. I don't want you here"
Lie
"Are you sure?"
"Yes"
Lie
"Well ok then.." He said as he left.
You're falling apart Louis A voice said.
No one wants you
Your friends thinks your crazy, mad, and a monster.
Everyone's scared of you
My hands gripped my hair and I screamed.
...and screamed
...and screamed
~*~*~*~*~*
~present time~
"I can take watch Haz" I said to Harry.
"A-are you sure?" he asked surprised
"Yeah. I can't sleep right now" he said.
"Oh. Well if anything happens, promise you'll wake me, ok?"
"Ok"
He laid down and fell asleep.
I heard the conversation that he had with Lynn. They were losing hope in me.
The two people I need most in my life gave up on me.