Hunter Rowland
A/n~ You can ignore the picture of you want to but it's my gender on Facebook because my brother and I dared each-other to do that, his are "Obama,Fourbracelets, and a blender." Now he claims he feels like a blender ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Hunter and I have been dating for close to two years.
He seems to be drifting away, I mean it seems like he's cheating on me.
Today we were sitting in his room when he asked me to leave after getting a text message.
"Hunter, I'm not going to leave." I said
"You need to." He said
"Hunter, please just hear me out." I sighed
"Can we please talk later?" He pleaded
"Sure." I sighed getting up and leaving.
I walked home which was a few blocks away.
When I got to my room I called Blake.
He sent me straight to voicemail.
Great.
I sat my phone on my bed and changed into a tank top and shorts.
When I was about to play music I got a call from Hunter.
"Hello?" I answered
"Who is this?" I another girls voice asked
"His girlfriend, who is this?" I asked shocked
"No, I'm his girlfriend." She said
"How long have you guys been dating?" I asked
"Like three weeks, why?" She sassed.
"I've been with him for two years, but please tell him we're over and I never wanna see him again." I said hanging up and throwing my phone.
I picked up my iPad and turned on the song "Away by B-mike."
I relate to that song so much.
My phone started ringing but I ignored it.
When I finally picked it up, I had 6 missed calls from Brandon, 19 from Hunter and 24 from Blake.
I just scoffed and blocked all their numbers.
They didn't even tell me it's been going on for three weeks.
Hunter should of just broke up with me, I would have felt better than I do now.
I was finally crying.
It takes a lot for me to cry.
I changed again but this time into grey joggers, a black T-shirt, my maroon vans and I tuned off my iPads music and grabbed my phone playing the song Away on repeat.
I walked to the cemetery.
I sat in front of my fathers stone.
He was such a good man.
I remembered what he was like.
He died four years ago. I was 11.
He used to always tell me that love was the most fucked up drug of them all.
I always swore I'd never fall in love but this time I did.
I knew my dad would be proud of me for pulling through this.
He always understood my problems.
He knew I would always remember him that's why when he died he took his last breathe uttering "I love you kiddo."
I sat there crying into my hands.
I heard Hunter, Brandon and Blake's voices.
I'm guessing they were broadcasting because the whole time I heard them saying guys.
Hunter was crying.
Haha, okay.
He kept crying and stuttering a lot.
I got up quietly and began leaving.
I wen through the woods and I could hear them getting closer.
How do they know where I am?
Fuck, track my iPhone.
I laid my phone down on the grass and kept running.
When I got home I ran into my room and cried.
I just sat with my back up against the wall and cried into my hands.
That quotes goes through my mind a lot.
I have always felt like Hunter was never fully mine.
I have always felt like because he doesn't tell anyone about our relationship, I'm not 100% his and he's not 100% mine.
Like as people we always try to find out soulmate but think about it like this:
If you're meant to be why hide the true relationship, if anyone had anything to say it shouldn't matter because love is supposed to be the strongest bond you can have with somebody. But when the person feels like you don't want them or need them anymore, then what's the point in trying?
I went downstairs and found some of my moms alcohol.
(My mom is never home. She is always out with her pedophile boyfriend doing drugs and loving his kids.)
I pulled out cotton candy vodka, it seemed like it would taste good.
I pulled out all 20 shot glasses we had and filled them.
I took them one by one, as the vodka burned the back of my throat.
I forgot I left my front door open, I was tipsy so walking to the door was a challenge.
I slowly but surely got to the door.
I only shut it in case my mom was coming home. (It's been 2 weeks.)
I doubt she will.
I'll probably be on the streets soon.
I went back to the cabinet and pulled out whiskey.
I poured twenty shots of that and took everyone knowing I was gonna regret it in the morning.
When I was done with the whiskey, I somehow managed to go up the stairs and into my room.
Then I went to sleep.
Tomorrow is going to be hell.
*the morning*
I woke in the morning with a pounding headache.
I went downstairs and got a water bottle.
I took 6 aspirin, yes 6.
I went upstairs to change.
I put on black joggers and a grey tank top.
I put on just above the ankle Nike socks.
Then I went for a walk.
I needed fresh air.
I walked to he nearest park and saw the boys, yet again Hunter was crying.
I began to leave.
I was gonna run but I forgot to put on shoes, typical Noel move.
I ignored the boys and continued walking.
They chased me but I didn't run away.
They still have my phone.
Fuck.
I stopped dead in my tracks and Hunter stood in front of me.
I starred down at the ground.
He lifted up my chin with two fingers and made me look at his glossy eyes.
"I'm so sorry." He said
"Yeah me too." I said
"Why are you sorry, you didn't cheat." He said
"Yeah but I broke the promise I made you." I said sadly
"What promise." He asked
"I um, I went back to drinking last night." I said shakily
"WHAT THE HELL?! YOU SWORE YOU WOULD NEVER TOUCH ANOTHER OUNCE OF ALCOHOL AGAIN!" He yelled at me
"AT LEAST I DIDN'T CHEAT ON YOU!" I yelled throwing my hands into the air.
I left, leaving my phone and all three boys behind.
I went straight to my house and pulled out whiskey, vodka and Scotch.
I got out every shot glass I have, well my mom has. Which is like 50.
I filled each one up with a variety of the three alcohols and drank.
I drank until I was numb.
But I didn't stop there.
I kept drinking.
I knew my limits and I exceeded them by a long shot.
I was currently seeing black but I kept going.
I didn't stop until I could feel a faint heart beat.
Then I dropped.
Hunter's P.O.V.:
Blake and Brandon ran to Noel's house with me.
I knew what she was gonna do and I knew she wasn't afraid of dying.
She never cared before.
We were beating on her door and there was no answer.
Brandon and I lifted Blake up to the window so he could open the door for us.
Blake ran to the door and opened it.
He looked sad.
I ran into the kitchen and saw her lifeless body on the floor.
She was gone.
She was actually gone.
Blake and Brandon called the cops and I sat in the kitchen holding her lifeless body and crying.
I never intended to take her life from her.
I never knew that one fatal mistake could end someone else's life.
They didn't even take her to the hospital.
She was pronounced dead on the stretcher.