Putting Up A Front
We embrace the idea of being ourselves. And for good reason.
Because most people are almost never themselves.
I'll be totally honest. I might seem like the bubbly, bright, hyper, chatty girl here on Wattpad, and in real life, but as soon as I'm in my room on my own, I'm not so loud and exuberant.
I'm actually insanely shy and I prefer to be alone and keep to myself. I'm not unhappy, in fact, I'm pretty happy. I just don't tend to be as wild and hyper as I am on here.
I pretend that I'm all happy-go-lucky and chatty. And... idk why I have to make myself do that.
Like Vernon said, "Why are you putting up a front?"
I hate being forced to be loud.
I hate it when people get angry at me for keeping to myself.
I don't want to have this extroverted alter ego anymore.
So many people only love me when I'm loud, and that's not even who I actually am.
Sometimes I feel like it's only you guys, my Wattpad family, and a few close friends and family, who understand me.
I wish I could naturally be as loud and bright and happy as I act.
But I can't.
At least you guys will accept me regardless.
Sorry for the rant, I've just been really pissed about this.
I might delete this later.