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I tried to write about how stupid the situation between us was, but words wouldn't form. I tried to write about how two people that seemed so right for each other met at the wrong time. I tried to write about how angry i was at my destiny for crossing paths with you and then pulling us apart. I tried to write about how you made me feel, how crazy i was about you. I tried to write about how you made me blush, how you made my cheeks turn red and how you made me smile. I tried to write about how we stared at each other standing few inches apart. I tried to write about your honey-like voice that made my insides go crazy because i wanted to hear it more. I tried to write about the day you complimented my dimples and smiled right after. I tried to write about the times i made you blush and smile from ear to ear. I tried to write about how you couldn't keep your eyes off of me and how it drove me insane and sent shivers down my body. I wanted to write about the time i tried to control my desire to talk to you and my need to see you and be around. I wanted to write about how i told myself that i'll be fine after you're gone, because deep down i knew something so good would not last longer. I tried to write about how your absence affected me, how it made me sad and want you even more. I wanted to write about my anxiety and my beating heart when i saw you for the first time after a long time of not seeing you. I tried to write about my shaky hands and my hard breathe whenever you were near me. I tried to write about how i missed you and how i thought of you in the bus on my way to college. I tried to write about how every day i hoped to see you, but every time was left with disappointment. I tried to write how your existence made me question everything, even the little things, even the things i usually don't pay attention at. I tried to write about the nights when i couldn't sleep wondering if you think of me or even miss me. I tried to write about the days i wondered if you're fucking other girls or if you have replaced me. And the thought of you being with someone else, scared the living crap out of me. I tried to write about how i couldn't eat because i haven fallen for you so hard that food didn't make me happy. I tried to write about you and everything that had happened between us, but i couldn't. I couldn't because i made an illusion out of you and i fell for it. I couldn't because what was the point of writing about someone who can't even form a sentence out of you. I couldn't because deep down i knew that we were just strangers. I couldn't because i was too angry to waste my words on you. I couldn't because i still can't wrap my mind around the way you treated me and how easily you let go and disappeared. I couldn't because i still hoped you would come back.